Heido's

2007-01-31T14:08:00.000+08:00

This blog will suspend indefinitely.

C

2007-01-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

最近
李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

Phuket Paradise

2006-12-09T18:08:00.001+08:00

HOLA!!

Just got back from my annual Phuket trip yep.. This time round with the company of my imp. No doubt, my favourite campanion for trips with never ending topics to talk, near heat stroke sun tanning, realxing swims and nuaings..

here you are..

All ready

All looking forward to the getaway

The familiar settings.. back to Holiday Inn Phuket

How much should I eat??

Heh heh.. here goes!! FOOD!! FOOD FOOD FOOD FOOD!!

Eat my LEG!!

You want some SINGHA??

Malibu Pineapple is still the best..

Barbecued intestines!! Yummyyyyyyyy

sssssnacks

Adding to the collection ;)

Not forgetting the kids.. Byebyeeeee

=)

2006-11-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

As we all know the clown puts on heavy make up or masks when “on duty”. When the clown meet with unhappy issues.. something bothering him.. he cannot just put down his mask. When his clients say things to insult him.. he cannot only just maintain the grin in him.

Well.. the clown can't blaming anyone, it's just him to portray his poker face at the end of the day.. When the clown knocks off from his shows.. He shades his make up and mask, looks himself in the mirror.. the perfect grin in him wasn't hanging from the face his eyes were dampened and tired.. there are things he want to say.. he has emotions that he wants to show but, to whom??

Everyone has a clown to cheer themselves up when needed, they expect the clown to do it. The clown himself knows can only continue with his poker face. The clown always pleases people..

Somewhere only I know..

2006-09-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

This place, where it's empty and vast
This place, where it's eskimo cold
This place, where it's bald
This place, where tranquility exudes
This place, where you sit on the edge and nobody cares

This place, where only I know..

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

2006-09-11T11:58:00.000+08:00

Erm.. not to me.. but to HONG & JIAN!!! This couple has been together since like 7 years ago!! Longest running couple cum buddies of mine.. =)

Wish you guys the BEST.. and may something special happen some time soon? *Cheeky smile

2006-09-11T11:57:00.000+08:00

HAve been a bit of a slump lately after a mentally and physically demanding week. Gear up and pick up some speed soon..!!

work work..

2006-09-06T10:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it’s just ironic. When some people know there is a puddle of water in front of them and it’s going to wet themselves when they step into it. They did it anyway.. Perhaps, it’s to cool their feet, perhaps it’s to wash off the mud on their feet, perhaps perhaps.. They just did it.. I am quite sure many have experienced this at some point in life.

Was just chatting with Eunice, and decided to explore the inner side of the male psyche. =)

Topic: Why is it guys perceived to be less emotional? I beg to differ..

Some just decide to put on a mask and show everyone the macho side of themselves and not let others perceive them as vulnerable. Human what.. Always fear to show the weakness..

Some decide to keep to themselves because they know by showing the emotions it’s not as simple as opening up themselves. It does have a degree of effect on the related parties. Somehow, it’s about protecting the related parties.

In the end, males just kept to themselves most of the time, and not let other see what they actually feel in them. Does that mean they feel any better when things aren’t going well? Does that mean they aren’t feeling anything? Does that mean they aren’t emo??

Fusion

2006-09-05T16:47:00.000+08:00

HOLA!!!

Have got number of things to update here man… It’s been sometime since the last entry.. I was just browsing the blogs of my buddies, and also realize the hectic period they are all going through..

Here goes..

Lesson Number 1: Empathize and being uptight on urgent matters
Let me just start with something unfortunate.. Just as I was about to start my running regime in preparation for the SC marathon, my old friend “piles” came back to look for me.. This time round was like it’s the most serious of all times that I’ve got. It Bled.. Yes.. BLED.. Just like all women who see blood stains every month, just that I am without pads.. Damn disgusting and now I empathized with all holy female!! And worst thing is Aussie doesn’t sell the medication that I take!!! Thanks to Bobby that sent me the medicine.. That saved my life la.. Just in time.. =)

Lesson umber 2: I AM POSSIBLE
I just finished a hell of a week and with all the assignment datelines flying across my head, mid semester exams one after another. On top of all, the normal classes still on going… seh… Well.. This is when all served NS would have said: “Everything is possible, I AM POSSIBLE!!” Sometimes, we just have to adapt ourselves to the environment don’t we?? Everything is manageable and I still have time to do things I want to..

Lesson Number 3: “Learning vehicle”
Many things sure happened in this period, friends have been feeling ups and downs.. Which inevitably would have affected me too.. Unfortunate stuffs do often happen, and when they happen, it always serves as a learning vehicle to us. Like what I’ve been telling my trainees. Everyone of us is a learning vehicle to everyone else. When a “learning vehicle” experiences some things, everyone of us will hope onto this vehicle and bring us through. Of course, the “learning vehicle” will be going through a hard time; it is up to the “passengers” to cheer him/her on. Most importantly, the “passenger” will learn from the experiences and reflect on it. It will be too late when the same kind of mishap happen to you and you cry over it for not learning previously.

Lesson Number 4: Not going into corners in high speed
One fine day, I was driving to school along my favourite “Aussie Mt Akin” route.. It’s the last S-curve and I decided to make a stupid decision. Not dropping gear earlier and reducing speed. In the end, my tyres cannot take it at the corner and skidded.. Tried counter steering, and den “siam-ed” the head-on lamppost, but then left tyre still hit the curb and bursted… Sians… Axle bent, alignment gone.. and so…

(I decided to push Celica into the Brissie river)

BYEBYE

And then.. the new-born bad boy.. UFO (U F*CK OFF)

0-100km/h is mind blowing
Handling is excellent
The “chopper” roar is her identity. =)

UFO

The Black Boys

Initiation @ the Fridays’ by the Bad Boys Inc.
Great great night.. Enjoyable but no pictures.. I hope.. I puked like nobody business.. I dranked without controlling. I knew I need not hold back, simply because of the company I’m with. They rock big time..!!

Sometimes, we just wonder how did we actually crawled through tough times.. Weathering all odds against you.. Well, the company you have and support you get says it all.. When you are mugging like hell in sch, cold and disturbed by irritating debiting and crediting, what is going to perk me?? Some home-cooked dinner did. The details that goes down to what kind of meat to use, the attempt to create multiple flavour, the smile you put on when I see you at the door.. Can’t even match the Blitz Blow Off valve!!

Genki!! Genki!! Genki!!

Talking about bad karma, exactly 1 month later, it’s Charmayne’s turn to smell my puke!!

Not getting enough of you..

2006-08-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

People come and people go.. This has always been the reality of this world. Having knowing it, does that mean one can just brush his/her hair, murmur: “this is life...” and carry on with life without any tingling in the heart?

NO..

Most of the time, one will do a major reflection when some loved ones left. One will always ask oneself, “Have I done enough when they are around?” “Have I done enough when they are around?” “How have I been treating them?” All sorts of questions keep popping up which are normally against you..

It’s never enough, especially when it comes to treating someone with love.. It’s normal to feel the regret.. Don’t be too hard on yourself.. The fact that your emotions rushed up, reflected and teared, the person who left will be waving at you, with the most gracious smile..

It's always darkest during dusk.. After dusk, comes Sunrise.. =)

2006-08-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

I don’t remember having this feeling before.. It does hurt, a lot. It’s as though part of the heart still attached to the arteries while a chunk just descended. But because of this, it also made me realize, you..

2006-08-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

Had a by far one of the most enjoyable clubbing sessions. Considering my not-so-many clubbing experience, most were either I left early alone, being “flown aeroplane” (you know who you are) or went with some company who I don’t really “click” with, or sat there with all the company of the shots glasses and jags.

It was a total opposite a night ago..

2006-07-22T08:54:00.000+08:00

I think I made a correct decision. 我行我素.. That’s me. =)

I am glad.

22nd July 2006, 1029 hrs

2006-07-22T08:53:00.000+08:00

This is a transfer from another random piece of paper:

Here I am writing on a random piece of paper again.. I really feel the old Clint is getting more and more detached.. He, who used to dare show all emotions in front of people, He, who dare to make all kinds of decisions, He, who does things his way..

Frustrated. Nobody to talk to. Nobody to encourage me when spirits are down. Nobody to give second opinions. Nobody to turn bad days to bright ones.

Perhaps this is another way of letting it out.. Life goes on..

22nd July 2006, 0857 hrs

Random events

2006-07-22T08:50:00.000+08:00

It's been sometime since and came back from Sydney, events like making new friends and went to the Gold Coast overnight. Damien somehow triggered something in me, left me with thoughts I should reflect on. No more disillusion.
In the same week, made another trip to the coast with Charmayne and housemates. This time, in a adhoc fashion.. *Grinz
Birthday Boy.. How about a winter barbeque..
Ivy finally got a flight to Brisbane!! Met up with her and a new found friend, Fang for dinner.. Nice talking to them and now I know more secrets about stewardesses!! Hiak hiak hiak..
Got myself drinking, drinking and drinking.. but still managed to walk.. ahem.. stagger home..
School is starting soon!! Holy bananas!!
3 days lessons only!! YAy!!

2006-07-18T20:46:00.000+08:00

HOLA!!

Blog silenced for some time due to the packed holidays.. Moved house, Trip to sydney, looking for a car, spreading sembuca love, etc etc..

Emotions,thoughts and feelings flowed continuously.. Written whole lot of stuffs on receipts and serviettes, my company must be puzzled with the cool Clint.. Shall keep them classified for now..

Anyway, posted some pictures from the trip, enjoy them BUT nothing beats the by experiencing yourself.. =D

Ski Team @ Darling Harbour

Ice CreamO

Guess who..

Bunk mates in Lok Kok backpackers..

Ski class @ Threadbo, Snowy Mountains

Fugging cold while awaiting to reach the ultimate trek route..

YAy!! Snowy snowy..

Shaky shaky..

Our route.... and 60 degress slope!! ARG..!!

Best Hot chocolate ever.. Saved my life..!!

Rest of sydney gang

Yeah~ Essentials..

Watched Romeo & Juliet.. I Love Thee..

Sanding boarding not so boring with her.. =P

Wild Dolphin watching..

So long opera house..

2006-06-28T08:12:00.000+08:00

A total loss.. I didn’t know actually why I was at Kandy (Party event) last night. It was the virgin trip to a club in Aussie here.. Wasn’t really impressed with it, resulting in walking around Chinatown when all shops are closed.. Nothing interest me, and off I go with my wheels.. Drove around city for a while under the bed of stars, with the road as empty as what I was feeling..

An article to share..

Sidney Jourard writes:

A choice that confronts everyone at every moment is this: Shall we permit our fellow to know us as we now are, or shall we remain enigmas, wishing to be seen as person we are not?

This choice has always been available, but through our history we have chosen to conceal our authentic being behind masks.

We camouflage our true being before others to protect ourselves against criticism or rejection. This protection comes at a steep price. When we are not truly known by the other people in our lives, we are misunderstood. When we are misunderstood, especially by family and friends, we join the “lonely crowd.” Worse, when we succeed in hiding our being from others, we tend to lose touch with our real selves.

2006-06-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

Came back to change into my soccer attire and surprising saw a parcel lying on the table with my name on it!! It’s always exciting to see parcels!! Who can it be?!?? Who can it be?!?! Ran through my mind a dozen of times before I set on the side of my bed and opened it.

A book from Stella.. The message struck me. It pulled me back to what I was feeling a couple of months ago.. Somewhat I could empathize with her.. An aura seemed to surround the little black card.. Sorrow. Bitter..

This strange feeling.. Devoured me..

~Hope your days had already brighten up by the time this parcel reached me.. =)

2006-06-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

Finished my last paper today.. Wanted to stand up and follow Charmayne when I see her leave!! But she is jus unbelieveably fast in finishing her paper..

I was pretty excited when I walked out of the examination hall, a feeling as though my feets get lifted off the ground and I start to walk on thin air and eventually take off.. It was all illusion..

I need to adapt again, this time all schedules seemed useless and I can do whatever I like! I need to fill my empty slots!! Let me start with my “To-do” list..

Eh... No more walking to GP south with Charmayne ar?? hahahwhahha Have you learnt the way now??

Ps: Thanks guys for all the SMSs from Singapore. Lifted me!

2006-06-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Still remembering, 2 years ago Fathers’ Day was my BMT visiting day. Though I admit it wasn’t a gruelling time in BMT, it was still special for my parents to go all the way to Tekong just to see me. Really appreciate it much.

Today, I called home to wish my dad a happy fathers’ day. It was a mere 10 min conversation, but strangely I felt a sense of joy during the conversation. Although we’ve not seen each other for these months, but I felt we’ve gotten closer.

HAPPY FATHERS’ DAY TO ALL!!

Dramatic Morning

2006-06-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

I was in dreamland lying on the fine sand, enjoying the rays from the morning sun that warms me from within. Out of nowhere a familiar ring tone disturbed the tranquillity that was occupied with waves splashing and flapping of the seagulls wings.

The sand turns out to be me cannot-make-it bed, and the heat comes from the heater. Charmayne appears on my LCD of hand phone at 0733 hrs. Huh?! Thought she’s having a paper at 8? Still so free to revenge for yesterday’s sms?

Clint officially became a character in the drama queen’s episode. She is having a paper at 8 and she is stranded with the first bus arriving only at 8++. Here goes.. Slipped into my favourite berms and off I go.. Seriously I do not know the street names here, and where to find her.. No known prominent points. Hmm.. Luckily the road was clear and found her with little effort.

She looked cool sitting at the bus stop, flipping her notes. But I can actually feel the anxiety she was feeling, her poor heart must be beating real hard for the morning. Wanted to suan her max la.. but then think better not provoke her further if not can feel her knuckles on my chest. After all drama, tension, anxiety and cold feets, objective is met with 7 min to spare. See her walk towards the exam hall donning her white jacket and boots, compared to my flimsy top and slippers. I am shivering!! But glad we made it.. =)

Hope you smash the paper!! You better, with all my sleep time and risky driving!!

27 million won!!

2006-06-16T13:10:00.000+08:00

A whopping AUD$27 000 000!!!!!

YEAH!!! I got myself a gold lotto ticket (similar to ToTo in Singapore) after we had lunch in Chinatown. It cost me a good 20 over bucks and I was cursing the cost of it. Now, every cent is worth it!! It was just casual and never did I think I could have won!!! OMFG!!
I am so excited now and I am going to list down how I am going to splurge a fraction of it!!

1. Drive my Celica into the Brisbane River tonight!! Byebye.. HAhaha

2. Get an air ticket now to fly back to Singapore and bring my whole family and friends over. If you interested, give me a ring, like now!!

3. Pay for all the packages for the ski trip and upgrade all to suits. (I'll be as happy as him!)

4. Start looking at cars.. I want a MR 2 GT!!

5. Buy the apartments along Brisbane river and let all my friends stay there!

6. Move to the Conrad Treasury tonight!!

7. Buy a house at gold coast!!

8. Buy a yacht!

9. Pay all my sch fees, all the way to PhD

10. CASINO

Friend: “Time to wake up Clint.. We going GP south study, you want to go??”
Me: “Sure!! Let me just end this joke” (Cheeky smile drawn across the face)

I just finished a continuous 3 days of exams.. And now awaiting the last paper on the 24th..

Armstrong's Footprint Legacy

2006-05-26T13:11:00.000+08:00

Just attended the most enlightening lecture of the semester. It was about leadership. And he showed us this footprint at the end of the lecture:
This footprint is going to be there for centuries and millenniums. Maybe not the footprint physically, but the legacy that it had created. It is the same for the impact we have made when we were in leadership roles. We create a legacy of our own, and hope it they will have more positive effects then negative ones..

I'm STRAIGHT

2006-05-26T12:57:00.000+08:00

Was taking a break from my books and decided to skim through photos.. As I come to the photos that I took from the last Phuket get-away, I suddenly remember one incident that I didn’t share with anyone.

I WAS BEING HARRASSED BY A GAY ON A SECLUDED BEACH.

Yes.. There is no typo error or whatever. We were brought to this little island that only took me 5 mins to walk the circumference. Was feeling sleepy and lied on a beach chair and fell asleep. After I woke, this half naked native kept following and speaking to me. I was like already apprehensive judging by the looks on his suggestive looks.

I was enjoying this view..

So I decided to walk to another side of the beach, apparently with more people. Didn’t think much about it and continued with ultimate relaxation. When I turn my head, I saw his face again.. He kept asking me to go sit down with him. Wah lau.. I really wanted to tell him that I’m straight but thought if I walk closer to him he might just grab me and drag me to this corner and… ARGGG…!!!

BAH!! To my shock, the apparently more people side of the beach are all his friends!!! WTF!! I started to sit up straight, on alert 5. My eyes glancing left and right for threats as well as my boat mates. I lasted till my boat was time to drive off.. Thank god..

My saviour boat

Well, no offence to gays, but I’m straight. =)

Nostalgic

2006-05-25T10:31:00.000+08:00

Heater is on! It’s been quite chilly nowadays, especially when the sun is down. Makes me more comfortable to study and while sleeping.. The sound that it produce, although not as powerful and loud, but it resembles the generator in campsite..

It’s been some years when I used to be in ubin, laying safari beds side by side till they fill the whole patch. Many a times I was just sleeping beside the generator, not a problem falling asleep though. Still remember having woken up by the previous shift of night watch and they just take over my safari bed.. The small talks during the shifts made them ever enjoyable.

Those days were really tiring but was doubly fulfilling. Having able to make people tear not because of fear at the sight of me, but also tear with gratitude. Having able to touch people’s hearts.. Knowing people had gained from the experiences. I am thankful to all these people also, for being part of my experiences and learning points..

2006-05-22T08:57:00.000+08:00

Puzzled about why am I having this long period of blog silence? Yea.. I logged in several times, and actually typed. But they all ended with the select all and “delete”.

Hmm.. Have really been seriously contemplating whether to blog again. Yup, here I am. Finally managed to convince myself that keeping all to myself may end myself in the mental institute.. Anyways.. Running away is not an option! Rough patches here and there but that doesn’t bring me down. Hmm.. Everything aside, just focus and concentrate on my studies here. Studying isn’t really my cup of tea, nevertheless, still got to pull myself through.. I want to score!!

Well, this is actually one of the few things I have control on. I can’t give it up. One of my favourite quote: “Don’t ask whether I can do it, ask whether I want to..” I am beginning to doubt it in. There are really certain things even if you want to make it happen, it just won’t, or maybe you really are pulled away from making it happen. Whichever way, it doesn’t happen. Lesson learnt. Sometimes we cannot just tie “courage” on the forehead and go all the way. When met with a stalemate, one will need to know how to manoeuvre out of it. There are always other ways isn’t it?

Having said that, how many of us can do that in all aspects? Don’t feel guilty if you didn’t raise your hands, because you are not alone. You are not alone, we all continuing to grow and learn.

Cheers!
~Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows

2006-05-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

Feeling terrible since last night.. Slept at 0437 to finish yet another assignment. Just before I lie on the bed, treated the toilet bowl with all my puke!! lol.. Woke up with this unknown pain.. Is it hunger? Knocks from the indonesians? Cramp? Stomachache? Don't know..

Back in Uni now, revising.. Taking a break by yelling at the blog. Hmm.. Visiting the Buddha festival later, just for the fireworks..

I'll be fine after a good sleep!! Take care all please!!

2006-05-06T09:27:00.000+08:00

Dear Char Char:

How have you been? Hope you are enjoying much and met many many more friends. I understand the feeling.. Have you been on MIRCing much? Have you been catching up with the HK serials?

It’s been 6 years and more since you left.. Your face still very much intact in my memories. I thought I saw you yesterday, the striking resemblance.. The spectacles, the chubby face, the lips.. I still remember.. I remember the companion I had during holidays with Daddy and Mummy.. It’s been a couple of hols, I wish you were here.. I really do.. Remember the times when I was 13 , you were 11, we went around Vegas while they went on the adult show? We won 2 big trash bags of soft toys? You wanted everything, and I had to try all games to get it for you.. Significantly, that dolphin how much did we spend on it? It’s easy for you just standing by my side isn’t it? I didn’t know piggy backing you now is such luxury now.. I have to admit I didn’t like much piggy backing you piggy.. The prizes we won have depleted since, but the dolphin is still here.

Come CNY, we always go “gong xi gong xi” to Dad and Mum on the stroke of 12. One year, we even tried to celebrate by playing lion dance into their room yea? These days, I merely walk into their room where we exchanged greetings. Stayed for a moment and went back to my room.. Remember sometimes when we come back from 2nd Aunt’s place we could get closer? Probably, Hazel and Cliffton showed us some things that siblings can do? Getting along like buddies, listening to music, introducing our friends to each other? =)

Mummy misses you a lot. Dad too, though he doesn’t shows it on his face, but I know he does, extremely. Sometimes, the vibration of Mummy’s tone when we talk about you.. It just makes me squirm. They still remember what you like to eat, occasionally stating them explicitly. The explicity, implicitly implies something else.. They are both well, don’t worry. I talk to mummy almost everyday.

You know you are one of the few that really made me rush to see you? The fear I felt in the cab.. I came to share an ice cream didn’t I? Many of times, I think I’ve not been sensitive towards you. I’m sorry.. Is there a chance I can make up to it?

I’ll piggy back you?

Kor Kor

2006-05-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

HOLA!!

Apart from the syllabus that have been breathing behind my neck, everything is pretty much calm.. The guys are planning an after-exams holiday, thinking of going on a skiing trip. I’m not so keen in going though, it’s not because of them, they are a fun and interesting bunch. It's me..

I’ve been thinking of splashing some cash and get another car. Not that my celica is not working for me, but I thought this time is a good time to like drive some cars that I will never drive back home, perhaps? Is this one way I can treat myself better? Tempting..

And I’m changing my roof too.. This is definite, to a 2-room apartment. At least there can only be another soul which can create noise. My other current 5 housemates plus their friends keep having these movies marathons, and even night before my exams papers.. I understood this when I first moved in, so not much complains.. I’ll just move out. Found an apartment already; just lack a housemate, hopefully some one “nice”?? I don’t know, there are several candidates now, see how it goes..

Parties..!!

2006-04-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

The rage parties started with a Bak Kut Teh Party!!

Then the LAN Party!! Look at the lappies!!

Sandwich party @ the Byron Bay, some 160km drive for "First Light"

First light on 20/04/06 =)

Byron Bay (Most easterly point of Aussie Mainland)

Beach Party @ the Surfers' Paradize!!

All above plus some shopping at the Harbour Town, travelling and all in less then 24 hrs.. Tiring.. But the moment at Byron Bay and the little surprise made it worth..

Pity the sunrise wasn't given clear sight from the clouds, though there is always the next time I can go again. Not for all things, you will be given the second chance. Live your live without regrets..? I try..

2006-04-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

Johnny commented on 2 different occasions: “Dead fish eyes.. Slept little ar?” Yes, for reading now is the best anaesthetic, best agent to achieve loss of sensation..

DAMN

2006-04-07T13:09:00.000+08:00

Was locked out of my room yesterday.. Needed to dash off for dinner when I had only 2 minutes to finish up my tutorials, collect my clothes in the dryer, change, and pack my bag for the study session.

Resulting in? Locking my room with my keys in it. Called the agent for the spare key, but was asked to wait till the next morning..

Carried on with dinner, and mugging session till 02** hrs, before sitting in one corner and chat.. Caught a couple of winks in TW’s bed then went for class. The engineers-to-be had a paper today, and gave them morning calls since I woke early for the keys. It was so bloody cold this morning..

Touched my heart: TW and Kiong asked the same question when they first spoke on the phone, “Have you gotten your keys?” =)

2006-04-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yea.. Got to talk to the gang again while they are out celebrating Mich's very belated birthday.. Beaming smile was hanging from my face while typing this blog, because I can feel the happiness and joy when they are together!! Laugthers, chattering filled the background of the phone.

Eric talked about my first wheels. 飘移 wor..

Shijian updated me about his PB, upgrading to SAVERS. Thought he's really one men's officer, we need more human in the SAF!!

Mun encouraged me to do well and get honours.. With all the crap reasons. Does a BOSS need honours??!! ;P

Xiao Pang laughing her head off. So typical her, unlike the days during the exams. Hair dropping ar, hair must be long now..

Jian actually said something that really caught me. He's really a deep one with exceptional perspective.

Mich.. She's the star today! Except for the long editing hours in the previous night and the entire day today. "Yesterday talk, today cannot talk ar?!" Hhahaha.. Ya la.. Whenever! ;P Enjoy!!

Bet you guys enjoy enjoy alot while together, so meet up more! Time management!

I pictured them waving hands to the phone when saying goodbyes.. They did.. :)

2006-03-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

Flashes of her face, the silliness of her, the naughtiness of her, and the sweetness of her keep flowing in his mind like an uncontrollable tap. Everything about her, the things that made me happy, excited, sweet, annoying, impatient, sad, bitter, positive and negative, things make me smile or tear; it has become nothing but just lingering memories.

This young lady has become the best lesson this main character has learnt in life. She definitely has impacted much in his life, very much… He knows, understands, and integrates into himself what is the meaning making decisions and not regretting at the end of the day. Knows, understands, and integrates into himself what the true meaning or gauge for “the best” he can do. Knows, understands, and integrates into him what and how to appreciate.

Reflecting the relationship of the past do help in the way we think, the way we perform, the way we treat people, the way we love, the way of life…

It's been 6 years now.. I hope you are away from all suffereings and is happy wherever you are.. =)

2006-03-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

Clint’s first wheels
Drove up Mt Cootha the first time with the Initial D sound track blasting!! The feeling was awesome!!

Thongwee’s 26th BirthdayOperation: Sierra TW
Objective: To deliver the homemade cheese cake to 17 Upland Road 21st March 2006, 0000 hrs.

Successfully surprised TW with the Kiong-made cheese cake. Had a simple but warm celebration.

Mt. Cootha later in the day

Nightmare or Dream??

2006-03-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

When I woke, I felt it was so real..

The gang went to this super luxurious chalet. Everyone was present. All enjoying ourselves, swimming, ball games, preparing food, etc.. The sea seemed vast beyond the horizons, sky ever blue and the terrains decorated with flowers and butterflies. The sceneries is just beautiful, magnificent.

Then, Clint initiated to go pick up some fruits (Probably I really lack fruits in Aussie here). Alone, drove out. Picked the best fruits, bought some more food.. When I went back, everyone was gone. House was empty, not even a creak..

Went all over to look for them. Came to this transparent cone where I can see them! They seem to have so much fun! Joking, teasing each other, laughing, giving little chases.. Time passed. 5mins, 40mins, 2hrs, counting..

Clint couldn't move behind the glass, gazing from afar..

2006-03-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

The gang went Ai Qin Hai and enjoyed the whole night! I was with them, at least for a moment! Was waiting for this chance, so that I can talk to most of them. Nice songs sung all night I’m sure, but I coincidentally caught the song.. Was stumped for a moment.

I’m 50 pages off from my target for tonight.. Worst.. I can’t get started..

Was reading my text and these hit me, the law of change says: “Things do not stay the same. If they don’t get better, they get worse.” If relationships do not get stronger, they will get weaker; if they do not get closer, they will become more distant.. (Bolton, 1986)

What I was thinking is now reinforced.. I can do nothing.. helpless me..

Melbourne cum Gold Coast

2006-03-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

It’s been some time I last blogged. Maybe it’s because the internet connection in my room sucks, maybe because I’m lazy. Perhaps I don’t know what to write; perhaps I don’t know what I can write.. hmm.. Never mind..

So many people doing, let me join in the fun!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=lamclint

How about some photos..?

Some garden in Melbourne

To the first chopper flight

The 12 Apostles

What's at the end of the rainbow??

Settling Good ;)

2006-02-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

I could have finish all administrations and preparartions for my new term, new chapter of life by myself.. Dad and Mum were really concern. I understand though as parents.. After all was done, which was like only 2 and half days after touched down, I've gotten everything done! Got an ensuite super near school, bought all the shit, admin, etc.. During conversation over dinner, my parents also realized I could have done it without them, maybe even with a better reults. ;) After all they merely, followed me around. Hmm.. It hurts to see them running around with me with all the fatigue and travelling..

These days made me realize how much they really are fuzzed up over me coming over to study, which equates to how much they care and love me..

Streets are colder, darker, quiet. I seem so small. My face look jaded. My lips cracked and peeling. Wasn't in the mood for anything. Adding to the solitude, internet wasn't as conveinient as switching on the computer. Some nights in internet cafes, some nights can't even find. My laptop actually crashed!! Spent like 6 hours trying to get it booted up. Felt like shit.. Was kind of desperate to get it up well and working.. No MP3s, can't type, no pictures..

Well, daylight always follow dusk. Lappie is up and working well. Backup datas flying in from Singapore, surprise backups in my external hard disk. ;) Settling well, met more people. Ask me if I settled completely and not feel anything? Nope, but I assure all, I'm well and good. No worries! Just bored here!! Hahaha

Thinking back now, the period when I was the junior ensign did make me learn something from the 1WO Jaffar: "Preparation, Determination, Focus!" For my studies here, I shall adhere..

PS: 五月天- 天天想你 dedicated to all Valentines out there. Happy Valentines'!!

Keep smiling.. After you've convinced everyone else, you can convince yourself! :)

2006-02-03T02:02:00.000+08:00

This is the most enjoyable evening I’ve had for a long time. Food, nice ambience, GREAT company. Hope you’ve enjoyed as much as me.. Have you?? ;)

Appreciating

2006-01-20T06:01:00.000+08:00

People can walk through the same alley everyday but many a times never noticed the details of the surroundings. People can run ultra distances, but never noticed what they ran passed. Perhaps, many of us are guilty of not appreciating the details. Maybe not to the extend of noticing zero, perhaps jus improvement needed.

Not even accompanied with my Zen Micro, went out as soon as I woke. For the first 15 minutes I was like stunned just below my void deck, I didn’t know where to go.. Lolx.. Just whack la.. Went to settle some admin and then just walk around. Came across this alley where a number of photographs are on display. These photographs describe the daily live hood of the Gorge Sanxia. Have you though of this:” How come the daily live hood of a third party can be so interesting to others?”

Decided to chill. Came to this place where I thought there isn’t anything I can complain about at all. Lovely ladies with excellent service, fragrance of tea and the rhythm clocking of the footsteps filled the atmosphere.

It’s since so long I met up with Nelson and Yiteng. Laughter and joy filled, thanks to Mich taking her own sweet time with her food.. Gave the equal amount of time for us to play gossip game. Thanks hah…

A photograph can be an illustration of many stories. A tea session can be ultimate luxurious. A simple dinner get-together can make your day. It depends on how much YOU want each thing to weigh in one’s heart.

珊瑚海

2006-01-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

(Jay) 海平面远方开始阴霾悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带一抹浅浅的无奈

(Lara) 你用唇语说你要离开(心不在)
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水你听明白不是浪而是泪海

(合) 转身离开 (你有话说不出来)
分手说不出来海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱(给的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

(合) 转身离开 (分手说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该)
热情不再 (你的) 笑容勉强不来爱深埋珊瑚海

(Jay) 毁坏的沙雕如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀

(Lara) 贝壳里隐藏什么期待 (等花儿开)
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风碱碱的爱尝不出还有未来

(合) 转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱(给的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

2006-01-10T11:49:00.000+08:00

Can't get the chinese characters to appear normal.. Damn..

Understanding animals

2006-01-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

For all kinds of animals, they reflect their emotions their own unique action and way. For example, dogs wag their tails when they are happy. Cows throw up their tails from pleasure. A deep grunt of satisfaction uttered by pigs indicates pleasure with its food. Cats stand at full height with arched backs when they are terrified.

Of cause, reflecting of emotions includes human too. Smiling, frowning, tearing, etc are not alien actions at all. However, there is a difference between human and animals in reflecting emotions. Animals do not hide their emotions. They reflect all emotions without conserving. Humans hide their emotions; sometimes even lie about how they feel. This makes us the most complex living thing. This, makes us the most difficult to understand.

Brain or Heart?

2006-01-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

What a time to have woken when I thought I could have a long sleep, it wasn’t to be. Woken by a nightmare..

Walked in the rain on my way back, drenched.. felt so tired.. Mind went blank for some moments and I can vaguely make up how I got home. Not interested to hot shower immediately, instead headed for bed.

Quoting from SJ’s entry, “Adaptability is one important trade one just gotta learn in order to get the head start. Whereas if ya wanna excel in the things we do, adaptability does not affect much. It only affects the time factor, how fast one wants to achieve his or her goal.”

I think adapability is controlled, by the environment, people. Etc. Perhaps, the most crucial of all, oneself. We can always decide to change things or not. In different situations, one may adapt or accept a situation readily. On some other occasions, one may choose not to adapt to it forever. Putting in layman term, YOU like it, we adapt. Don’t like it, don’t adapt. Feeling.

Recalling what my secondary school discipline master said, :” Life is full of choices. In life we have to make many decisions, of which some results in punishment, some reap rewards.” Sometimes, you well know the consequences of the choice, but you still wet your head. Again, YOU lilke, you choose. Don’t like, don’t choose. Feeling.

There is a factor that can limit this wilfulness of human. The power of reasoning, logic. This certainly brought a degree of organization into this world, otherwise everyone will just be following what their hearts urge them to. Change come in, it is a painful process. Thinking.

Perhaps standing at the junction is another way out..

2006-01-01T03:13:00.000+08:00

HaPpY 2 tHoUsAnD 6!!

Bye bye 2005!!

2005-12-26T05:27:00.000+08:00

Think I'm really fortunate to have a bunch of really awesome buddies. They may not show it straight on the face, but they really do care.

Thanks for the company.. Hope you 2 enjoyed the night too. Can have more of this husband and wiveS gathering! hahaa.. Also understood more about the night life of Chijmes right?? ;P

Even the best falls, sometimes..

2005-12-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

MerrY ChristMas!!!

Wishing all with Health & Happiness..

2005-12-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Seemed hooked to the “hole”.. Knowing or without, I’ve been visiting it. Until I realize it is not a physical place anymore, it can be anywhere, anytime. Just tagged to me..

Sawadee Carp~

2005-12-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

Nice environment, warm hospitality, good food and alcohol, beautiful people sums it all.. Most of all, away.. I just got back from PHUKET!!

"After beach bar" Awesome view!!

"The Beach"

Phi Phi island. A trip which I met all people from around the world. Swiss Pilot, Swiss Chemist, Russian hooligans, French chicks, Denmark therapist, Norway couple, Indian couple. Wonder why I got details on them? The friendly me chatted with everyone! A smile goes a long way..

Alcohol suddenly became the only drink when I'm out of the room..

Cheeky Chief Security of HolidayInn, Phuket

Thanks to my dad's network, got his friends working in Holiday Inn to take care of me.. Think he's just concern why I go alone.. Treated sure like a VIP, flanked by the Chief Security Phuket, Engineer Pratueng and Uncle Humphrey who is the senior project manager there. showed me around and indeed an eye opener. Legendary "fish tank" with all the girls waiting to be called. Fantasia, the first night club I step in. I was awed by the high quality!! NONO.. I didn't do anything!! Didn't manage to get Humphrey and Pratueng to take photo, we'll meet again..

Anchalee, The sweetest receptionist

Not forgetting the kids

Their smile will bring me back..

Didn't mean to make you guys worry.. not to say upset.. I just need time alone.. Thanks..

2005-12-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

Bashing army comms ball

yeah..

Keep hands to myself?? Ha..

God of Games!

2005-12-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

Remember many many years back, this very day I woke from my nab and rushed to the central and got her Momenet.. Happy Birthday..

Gruelling 18533 secs, finshing was AWESOME!!

2005-12-04T12:40:00.000+08:00

YEAH!! New milestone, new challenge met! I AM A FULL MARATHON FINISHER!! I want to thank everyone who helped with it.. My buddies are great!! They came down for me at the finishing line. I knew they were coming, and they form a motivation for me to complete it, no matter what happens. Either at the finishing line, or the hospital!
Thank you Mun,
Thank you Lay Hong,
Thank you Jian,
And Mich as always, made it happen, THANK YOU!

My dad, ever supportive. Gave me all service support, preparations, drove me.. He’s always very sweet with his little actions. YEAH!!

And poor Weiming for the morning, passing me all the power gels when I run pass. Kind of kana arrowed by me..

Got to rest my lower body, erm.. Lol.. Got run on Tuesday! ARG..!!

PS: 5 hrs 08 mins 53 secs

Addicted Runner

2005-11-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

2 half marathons in 4 days.. Yup, I did it!! Heavy legs today, probably because of the 20km on Wednesday, todays’ 20 click is more “scenic”.

Can't feel my legs for now.. Running is more and more therapeutic; get me away from all thoughts. Ha.. too tired to think maybe..

2005-11-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

Just came back from work.. Having mixed feelings.. My friend at work and myself has been competing each other in exploring stuff.. This product I've been thinking about it for the week.. But just lack some resources and assertiveness.. It was suppose to be my skill niche!!! Ha..

Suddenly, because of circumstance we've got to "give birth" to it before Monday. Arg..!! He beat me to it!! Though both stayed till late AGAIN.. But we were really excited about the work. Thought we needed the weekend to churn it out. WE DID IT!!

Positives just spurs me, they keep me going.. Just like running..

Good job LMH..

Bus 11

2005-11-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

Often when I was on my way home on the bus, I would come pass serveral runners along the way, often the same few faces. Also, the same thought cam eto my mind: I can be them. The difference is, I'm quite sure they live in the vicinity. Whereas for me, my home: Clementi, office: Airport Road.

With my PT kit and never-leave-me HP, I reach home after 2hrs 15min 09 sec. More to come!!

Tears and Rain

2005-11-23T02:49:00.001+08:00

Arg.. Hate these nights when I dozed off early and wake in the midnight with nothing to do.. Liverpool plays only tomorrow!! Thinking of work?? NAh... I'm able to cope..

Have been opening up the “fog-of-war” of my job, ever exciting to always see new things. Overtime often.. Even went back during public holiday, but it brings huge sense of achievement when efforts and results are recognized. Motivation to strive even harder!!

Positives keep sprouting, but it also made me realize the imperfection.. There are always things that we yearn for, but limited by circumstance. Or maybe it's just me.. Need a getaway.. Away to cool.. Soon..

James Blunt
Tears and Rain
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear. I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain, All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same:
it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words:
it's just tears and rain.

2005-11-13T04:37:00.000+08:00

One moment in time..

Another Moment!! HAhaha..

2005-11-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

i've finally learnt how to type in COLOURS!!!

2005-11-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

Felt so hopeless.. I couldn't do anything but wait. Thank god you're well..

Running rekindled

2005-11-05T09:44:00.000+08:00

Oh my god.. realizing it’s already 5th November.. IT’S ONLY 29 DAYS TO MY FIRST FULL MARATHON!!!

I’ve not been training.. Not even leisure jogging. Many events and maybe pure laziness has contributed to the lack of mileage clocked. It was about 6 weeks ago when I last ran. Then came the RCGC, the commissioning rehearsals, then adapting to my new work environment (which requires me to “climb” everyday). When I finally thought I can start my training, I woke up 1 hour early every morning planning to go clock some distance. THEN, it kept raining..

When I woke this morning, saw this cloudy, going-to-rain sky.. HECK la!! Put on my running gear and off I go. This discipline and determination came from?? You may ask.. I miss the days with me, I miss their jokes, I miss their company, I miss course time..

I really want to complete the 42.195km.. Lend me your support!!!

Balance??

2005-10-22T06:24:00.000+08:00

Everyone sure has a balance in their hearts. However, not everyone can clearly weigh out the difference. What is desirable, what is not.. When weighing the scale, we can see how colourful, filled with rainbows on one side, but perhaps lacking of something. While on the other side, the complete opposite.

In the end, these people is like lost at a junction. Without even knowing what to do with the next step. What they can do, is to just stand still and keep waiting. Just waiting..

Air Force Comms Ball

2005-10-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

Whew.. Have been having all kinds of functions this few weeks. RCGC, Commissioning parade, Air Force Dining-In and yesterday.. The Commissioning Ball. Donned in my number 2 and accompanied by Mich we drove to Four Seasons Hotel where it is held. She’s the best la.. I understand it’s so much hassle to prepare for the night, and it’s so draining.. Thanks.. That’s why she’s my best friend!! Hahaha..

There she is.. Mighty Mich

They are the ladies!!

Taking advantage!!

The fun lot

Once HAWK Always HAWK

P.S: Passed my driving first attempt!! HAhaha

423360 minutes over

2005-10-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

Tough rehearsals, scoldings aside, the graduation phase was brilliant!! The build up was enjoyable.. Spending time having fun with course mates, receiving blessings from friends and instructors. Enjoyed to every bit of this very last phase of my cadet life. Which also means no more switching off from responsibilities, every decision or phrase produced can mean a lot more.

As always, all good things come to an end. All of us will embark on our journey of our own. We’ve all come through 423360 minutes to attain this status!! Blessings to all!!

Hurray!!

Best colours seen

Proud moment

bros

Thank you for coming!!

Buddies

bob and dion

Nash

Yap

RSAF Combined Graduation Ceremony

2005-09-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! 16th Sep, the RCGC. Marks the end of the courses we attended for the passed 27 weeks. Can't wait for the commissioning parade!!

RCGC

57/04

Joyous!!

The Tree (Part 2)

2005-09-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

In life, many a times we are affected by many external happenings. How do we tackle them? Is it jus get lost and hope it will fade with time, or is it just up to our own hands and try make things happen? Any decision made doesn’t comprehend right or wrong, good bad…

Perhaps, we should just be like a multi-scarred old tree, which held its own fate in surviving. Even things do happen against our will or desired, if we can make the best of it, we can still work towards our desired outcomes.

The Tree (Part 1)

2005-09-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

There’s a German quote saying “The position where there was scar on the bark of a tree is the strongest”.

One of the greatest trees’ challenges from the Mother Nature must be the prowess of the weather. The trunk, the branches will be tested, broken, snapped. But also, because of this, they provide chances for them to heal and regenerate to continue living on. Of all, the areas with battered scars, although uglier than the rest, but is stronger and can support the tree and continuing growing with its limitless determination to reach for the equally limitless sky.

I believe those reading will understand the true meaning of the story. The fact that everyone has their very own story of “withstanding the weather”. Be it the departure of love ones, or is it just a minor discomfort at work. I have no intention comparing the degree of importance of everyone’s setbacks or regrets.

At this point, I believe long before time, Mother Nature had already blessed all living things created with the “survival skill”. Equipped with it, it will accompany us as we grow, even if we come to any setbacks, we will also be able to bounce back, and emerge stronger.

As quoted, the same as a thousand-year-old tree.

2005-09-04T17:03:00.000+08:00

Wow..!! Travelled alot today, without spending much. Kind of unusual, for me! HAha Started with a run in the morning.
Route: Home, to Botanic garden, round Botanic garden, then back home. Don't know what's the distance though.. 15km maybe, let me check when I have the time.

Actually wanted to run to Zouk for the annual flea market, just played out by Bo*by. Have to go somewhere I know. Botanic garden is beautiful!! Serene.. Felt like being filled with the happy family spirits. very comfortable, but didn't stay long, reckon I'll be back for more.

Then went in search for a briefcase for my newly bought laptop. Didn't want it to crack, break, smash before I bring it to Australia. can't find leh.. Everyone please please please look out for briefcase suitable for laptops.

Went on a feeder bus to suntec, happily got this 2 kidos in front of me, ultra cute. Brother and sister, gorgous mum with very pretty kidos. The sis have a small face, very pretty eyes, cute milk teeth, curly hair, always smiling, giggling, wearing this white wool sweater. The bro much more active, not afraid of strangers, and the mum have to consistently remind him not to do this, that..
Went to Swissotel to settle the Vertical Marathon, come across another 3 angels, hiding away from their parents la.. Playing hide-and-seek.

These scenes, from the botanic garden to the children, gives me a very special feeling. definitely feel that they are very blessed. Free from all troubles and worries. Their needs and wants, they can just roll on the floor and wail. Problems come, there will be 101 people lining up to settle for them.

BUt, I still prefer to be the one tackling the problem!! Cheers!!

RUN Clinton!! Keep running!!

2005-08-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Think today is one of the well spent Sundays for long long time. Used to go kayaking every sundays, checking out the perimeters on my favourite dancer and of course my friends. Kind of miss those days.. BUT the seasports club is so far away!!

Anyway, went to take part in the New Balance Real Run today. Covered 10km with different terrains. Aiya.. Show you all the advertisement.

Here!! The NB Real Run!!

The Route

Ya, many many people running.. Even the COA, the Commissioner Police is there, and more importantly, hordes of babes! Enjoy this run alot, nothing to think about, maybe that's why. Think I did quite well also.. HEhehe.. Oh.. I'm training for the marathon coming up at the end of the year. A good 42km to test my mental and physical strength. Anyone interested??

The 42km Route!!

Ya.. Seems like need to run forever to finish.. But can be done la.. I come out with this training schedule (all in km), see where it takes me.

Training Schedule

Hope my knees done give up on me, some may know what is it about.. But this is like milestone of my life la.. Need to challenge it, for myself!! Wish me luck guys!! And girls..!! HAhaha
Wish good health to all!! Cheers!!

New-found tranquility

2005-08-27T07:42:00.000+08:00

FOR SEVERAL WEEKS x200000000

Yeah.. After few days of regulating, got myself together and soon forgotten the downs of life.. NOTHING can beat me right.. HAhaha

NOW ;)

I’ve just woke from a 13 hour sleep!! I’ve practically nothing in camp to drain so much from me?? Where did it all go?? I don’t know..
Oh ya.. Reading magazines!! For the whole week, show you guys what’s interesting.

CHEAP..
A man goes into a bar and says to the barman, "Pint of best please."

The barman tells the man, "That'll be five cents, please."

The man is amazed at the cheapness and asks for the menu. He selects T-bone steak and chips. The bar man says, "That'll be 25 cents."

"That's fantastic!" says the man. "Can I speak to the owner, I'd like to congratulate him on his prices!"

"No," the barman replies," he's upstairs with my wife."

"What's he doing with your wife?"

The barman replies, "The same as Iam doing with his business down here!"

2005-08-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

Time please pass real quick for this period, I'm suffocating, suffering..!!!

09082005

2005-08-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day!!

A good 40 years have passed, and look at what we have now: The social harmony, the economic stability, the much needed education, the military potency, the ever safe environment, the high rise structures, the clean water, the organized infra-structures, Etc…etc…etc…etc…

I wanted very much to watch today’s parade, even on the television. Came back from Sentosa after a lunch and slacking at Sand bar. Perhaps I’m in service; perhaps I’ve grown another year. Watching the parade is just an action; I thought the significance and upon listening to the program also spurred me to some reflections. Of course, my interest in parades plays a part too. Please do not be mistaken that only people in the SAF have such thinking. I think many may have similar thoughts as all of us contribute to Singapore!!

Just say I’m happy with my identity; The Future is Ours to Make!!

2005-07-30T01:11:00.000+08:00

Having fun!!

Satisfied!!

2005-07-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

This weeks' feeling is totally different from last. Remember last week I was stuck to this seat preparing for my summary exercise as the exercise commander. Whole to prepare and think about, with no experience at all.. Just last thursday and friday, we prepared the stores and loaded to the convoy. All tonners, loaded with our much needed stores. Can imagine how much we need to carry and work on.
The week went by with all the presentations.. Physical work, mental tests, lack of sleep and food.. I'm glad it's over..

Booked out, and happily bought whole lot food without realising I didn't fetch my keys from camp!! With my parents overseas!! I'm so dead.. Had my dinner at the void deck. AHaha.. Neighbours walked passed as though I was shut out of door. Went back to get my keys, with a taxi uncle whom actually took me before! Remember him because he has failing kidneys. (Known from conversations)

Ordered pizza feasted with mich! drumlets was so overwhelming!! Glad that she feels happier now!! Oh, Happy birthday to Mich's Grandpa!! hahah

Going out to Holland V to chill later!! Ciaoz

Tempo faster pls..

2005-07-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

You guys must be wondering why am I at home, blogging, at such timing.. HMmm.. given a day off, on Tuesday!! For gods’ sake.. I don’t know what to do with it, doing something constructive, or at least something with a purpose..

Actually, for weeks I’ve been feeling this way.. I didn’t even know what is the purpose of weekends.. Except for lying on my own bed watching the seconds tick by. Days come and go, everyday waking up repeating the programme that have been repeating for forever. What is happening..??!!

The truth is nothing is like occupying me, except for national service for now.. and it's not so dynamic now.. Tempo of my life has to increase at least a million times!! Suggestions anyone?? Please help me..

P.S: (1) University of Western Australia and University of Queensland accepted me, so flying of early next year.
(2) Passed my final theory, Final practical on Lee Kuan Yew’s Birthday, 16th Sept. Wish me luck!

2005-06-28T14:37:00.000+08:00

Think I've missed out on it..

Happy Fathers’ Day!!

2005-06-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Fathers’ Day to all!! Ahhah.. father or not, still can enjoy the day. Still remember last year this time, it was parents’ visiting day in Tekong for me!! Wish all daddies healthy and earn lots of money!! But most important of all happy always!

Spent quite an amount this week. I actually bought 3 cell phones in a week!! HAhahh.. Of course 7610 for dad, which he chose. A 7270 for myself for a change and a N-gauge for the games which keeps me and Bobby in camp busy. Still a long shopping list to go..

Actually went to club momo last night, after a series of change of plans!! With Mich, Mun, SJ, Ryan, the ADA WSOs. Power la.. Got live band there, but kind of not up to the standard. (wala’s still rocks!!) Supper follows with Mich, the auntie selling the fish head noodles very high la.. Hahah.. Enjoyable night with great companies!!

P.S: Photos later, need to study!!

Dumplings for a table of food!!

2005-06-11T11:50:00.000+08:00

My favourite pair of ears is back!! Went to deliver some dumplings and return got a table full of food, fed by Mich and her mum. While we’re eating, Mich’s mum still continue cooking, as if cooking another set of dinner. Fed me like pig, like I’ve never eaten before la.. Good business!!
Glad to hear that she’s had an amazing holiday, but also pleased that she’s back. Missed talking to her and making fun of her!!

I’m 2nd year soldier now!!! Time really flies, so fast. Fortunately for me I’ve enjoyed it, mostly. Hope the ones who are serving, or serving soon to enjoy the process too!

Need to go sleep now, tomorrow will be doing some work at the Cheshire Home, outing again!! Last time round brought them to the Night Safari! Let’s see whether they enjoy the static displays in PLAB.

Happy Duan Wu Jie!! (Dumpling Festival!! Lol..) Cheers ;)

Rejuvenated!!

2005-06-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

REJUVENATED!! Dark clouds have passed, I flicked them away!! Emerged a better me!! HAHaa.. Actually already cleared for a couple of weeks, but didn’t feel like blogging so..

Time to do some updating after this long period of blog silence. Did some tutorials on blogging, posted photos, linked to more friends.

Liverpool crowned the Kings of Europe. Watched it in camp with the permission of my course commander. Best game watched ever!!

KINGS OF EUROPE

Went to apply for bachelor programs in Australia, waiting for good news to knock on my door. If everything goes well, will be leaving feb/mar 06. .

Went to shop for Zhengling's presentS, ALONE!! Well, guilty people like Ry*n, Ji*n, L*y Hong and Er*c claim that they do not have time.. Got ZZL 3 items, which I'm quite confident she's going to love them!! ;)

Yesterday was at Wala Wala’s, the live band, amazing. Accompanied with the presence of course mates, ex- course mates. Though seeing them for most of the week, still not sick of them!! Just did some maths, I actually only have 12 weeks left in my course to the graduation phase!! Wow.. Better enjoy the present, for now.

Ready for all the challenges ahead, BRING THEM ON!!!

~ Success is not in never falling, it’s picking ourselves up every time we fall

Dark Clouds Cover, just passing, I hope

2005-05-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

Arg.. what happened!! I havn’t been myself for this 2 weeks!! Always distracted, I’m not able to focus the things I do, especially in the course. Fortunately, this 2 weeks hasn’t been critical, just classroom lessons, and some deployment drills. That aside, Clinton also realizes he’s not as chirpy, not as calm, not as etc etc. Just not Clinton.

Clinton has to focus, quick enough. Sort out the nonsense in his mind. Just brush it to the back of the mind. Challenges ahead will be tougher then ever, better recover quick, so that Lam will impress as before. ;)

Rejuvenate!!!!!

P.S: Fell into the drain this week and sprained left ankle. Injured left and right ankle, had this terrible cough for 2 months sums 2005, as least till now, 14th May.

Maybe..

2005-05-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Night off again!! This has been happening ever since I move in to LCK camp.

Something has been inkling. Don’t know why, or maybe don’t want to accept it. Maybe as usual, just bury it, hope that I don’t stumble upon it again, or maybe not digging it up intentionally.

Don’t know what I’ve written, maybe I’ve not written anything.

1st day at Lim Chu Kang Camp 2

2005-05-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Taking time from my first night off of the week, which I actually just booked in this morning!! And now, I’m home again. Much traveling today, starting from morning to Lim Chu Kang Camp 2, it's actually walking distance to 9 of my relatives and their neighbours are just across the street. Lol..

My god, the place horrendous. Not to say the facilities and the one star hotel, which I can take it after slept in Nepal bunks and all the trekking trips I've went. The place is just in total mess! Really suspected the seniors did this to us.. Rubbish everywhere, everything not in order, etc etc.. Yup, SOP to stand by bunk when we first move in, did everything reasonably well, packed and cleaned up the place.

Then noon comes, when I booked out and head for Air Force school, for a badminton game. Ended at around evening, and headed back home. Already feel that I miss the camp mates back in AFS.

For those who are studying: Exams ending soon!! (or some had already ended!!) JIAYOU!!

For those who are working: Hope you are enjoying every minute of work!!

To all: Take care of your health!! Don’t over look injuries, even it’s just a sprain.. It’s haunting me now..

Whew.. What a day..

2005-04-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

OCT Clinton Lam has been given a 3 weeks confinement. Yup, that's right. Nothing to say, nothing to defend. FOr what?!? Apparently he injured his ankle some 5 weeks ago and not recovered since. Went to see MO again, and gave him a 14 days excuse, everything for lower limbs. Nothing usually happens when story came to this part, BUT he was caught playing soccer.. with the status tag still on him. Actually not caught red handed, but own up because of integrity.

NOW, Jack will probably say:" integrity not wedges what.. Also cannot eat!!" Hmm... That's beside the point. Well, have nothing to say. May have 3 weeks of blog silence, may not see me guys.. What a day to hear this piece of news, thanks for the confinement news on a BDAy.. LOL...

I'll be back

Happy Birthday to Mummy & Clint!!!

2005-04-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

Breaking blog silence.

Had a terrific night yesterday. It was gathering dinner with my family and friends!! Ok.. It’s a Birthday dinner, both Mummy’s and mine. For those who don’t know, our Bday is on the same day!! Didn’t know much about the food (busy talking), but suppose it’s not bad. The company, ULTIMATE. All are so fun, buddies, cousins, uncles, aunts, especially my uncle, who is already like 55?? All young at heart, no child at heart. Engaging conversations, music, laughter, joy, and happiness filled the hall.

Presents: WOW… Love them all, thanks guys. You guys remembered simple complement and remarks made and got it for me! Love them because you guys and girls mean a lot to me.

Hope everyone enjoyed one way or another. Satisfied.

P.S: Really should overcome my laziness in uploading pictures..

Buddies

Over weight??

2005-04-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

OhohoHhho… 2 more exams to go only!! Hmm.. But actually it has already become a normal for me to study everyday in camp. Taking up my gym sessions!! Shit.. Next week going to be better ba.. Course mates are great!! Ultra fun!!

And this world news: Clinton is OVER weight!!!! What!??!!?!? HAhaha.. Never thought it will happen to me.. Aiya.. Don’t care la, let nature take its own course. My dad’s size is imminent, behold..

Ankle still swell as though I’m wearing different shoe size, cough came back.. Arg.. Need to see doc again during weekend. Waste my precious weekend time.

My OC (our god pa) said this:
“We are all bloody good actors!! We can act in front of people, show them that moment how good we are. But ultimately, it’s our true qualities that will shine and last forever.”

Make lots of sense to me, what’s with the people being so showy and wayanging?? ;)

Another great week awaits!

Enjoying course, Appreciates weekends more then ever!!

2005-03-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Yes! I’m blogging, means I’m not confined!! Exams have not earned me any 2 days 1 night stay in AFS so but I know that it’s only a single slip that will burn my weekend away. Next week is the challenge, 4 exams!! Jialat, thought this long weekend can enjoy a bit..

Passed week had been bad, speaking terms on my health. Sprained my ankle during the start of the week!! ULTRA SUPER EXTRA PAIN and AGONY!! For an “injury experienced” person like me, this sprain is special. Couldn’t sleep the whole night, ankle hurts to the MAX no matter what position I put. Better not get injuries when you get older.. Cough gets worse than ever..

An arrow shot down by the FSM, decorate a classroom with Chinese cultural theme. Yes, it hit me. Time given: 3 nights.. ( WTF need to repaint the whole room, fix the computers, decorations…) Luckily got man power. Done it up, had an official opening by Wing Comd. Seems happy with it, good job 18th WSO!!

Enjoying course, Appreciates weekends more then ever!!

TURNOUT!!! sHIOK...

2005-03-19T12:23:00.000+08:00

Hahah… This is one of the most exciting training I’ve been waiting for in ADA Wing. It’s a tradition when the seniors will wake us all up in the middle of the night and “have lots of fun” with us!! Here’s the description:

0245: TURNOUT TURNOUT!!! Everyone is to fall in PT kit.

02**: Shoutings, screamings, counts of push ups filled the still air in Air Force school.

02**: Change into Long 4. More push ups.

02**: Time for a run, no, sprint. Everyone is like panting like dogs already…

03**: Go back pick up SBO and sands cans (330ml of cans, filled with sand). Shouting continued)

03**: Fall in at the chin up bar with the SBO and sands cans on in the webbing. Instructions: Every chin up bar clock 240 chin ups. There are 3 of them. Phew.. It’s been reduced to 200 per bar.

03**: Time for run again with the SBO and sand cans this time.

04**: (Dramatic part coming!! The famous missile walk.) Reach hanger. Shuttles open slowly. Beams of light shoots out from the V200 armoured vehicles. Roaring of the engines tickled me. Lol.. Shooting movie. Missiles launchers lined in positions. Everyone to pick up one launcher, 29 kg each, about 1.8 metres

Rules: 1) Can only carry with your arms.
2) Walk in file formation, one stop all stop.
3) Once stop everyone must kneel and balance the launcher.
4) One side of the launcher touches the floor, one confinement, 2 sides, and 2 confinements.

****: Keep walking… Keep stopping…

****: Keep walking… Keep stopping…

This time encouragement filled the air. From the seniors, course mates. Can really see how some struggled, muscles already not listening to commands.

0545: END OF MISSILE WALK. Shiok..

Time clocked: 3 hours
I thought the physical part was not really important. The relationships between us is. It really touches hearts in times of adversaries when you give a little lift, a little encouragement.

The day continued as normal, except for the closer bonds. Lam still went for his gym session that day.

ADA!!!

Reborn

2005-03-12T11:19:00.000+08:00

If you realize, the songs I choose actually has it significance. Sometimes it signifies feelings, thoughts or a phase. “Chong Sheng” meaning reborn is the current song. This song actually signifies the beginning of myself. I don’t feel good at all… Physically.

For some who knows, it’s coming back to haunt me. It seems like the feeling when I first enlist into BMT. Full of doubts, lacking in confidence…

Well, luckily Lam has this spirit in him. To be reborn a stronger man. It’s an ultimate challenge but he is eager to fight it through. ADA Wing is the only wing in the whole school that wakes at 0530 for 5BX. It marks the start of the day. After a long day of lessons and physically training, especially during every meal time, the setS of chin ups and setS of push ups which can be intriguing sometimes. My training doesn’t stop after office hours though… (FYI: Current scheduled training is from 0800 – 0530)

Extra training comes!! Soccer, running, gym sessions, etc. Sweat it all out. I need to rebuild and reach a higher peak!!

I’m going to max it all out to achieve that.

WEEK 8

2005-02-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

It’s already been a week since taking part in my third vertical marathon. This time round it’s the Temasek Tower, 53 storeys. But only after only this time then I seriously think to excel in it. Next time round, training, techniques, strategy, proper diet, etc. will be seriously looked at.

Time flies really fast this week. Have been “phianging” my class 3 practicals for the whole week. Taking 2 lessons each day after work. Phew… Super tired. But happy to say I’ve actually finished my syllabus in 10 lessons!! Save quite a lot of money!!

Nothing much to say, just wanted to blog before going away for course. Hope, things goes on smoothly.

It’s Casey’s and Zhirong’s big day today!! Their traditional marriage. Have fun and may you guys conquer the Silver marriage, Golden, Pearl, Diamond... !!

Behold!!

2005-02-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

It’s been some time since I blogged. Everyday I spend lots of time sitting in front of the computers (office and home), reading blogs, news, WORKING on papers… and actually the most important of all, watching “A Date with Vampire 3”!! The show is ultra nice and addictive! Apart from all the actions, animations, all the PRETTY ladies, the show reflects on the relationships among friends, lovers, strangers..

In one way, I actually played many characters during this period of absence. I often bring myself into the characters, the situations. Trying to feel how they feel, trying to figure how they think, and trying to learn from their experiences. Go watch it!! For the pretty faces, for the actions, for the experiences!!

This passed month, my Mama has been chirpy. She’s so cute with all her unexpected comments. Just like to filter the things we say. The ones that she deems positive transmits into her, the negative just act blur. Haha.. Often comes up with her unexpected comments and phrases!!

Today, Clinton is just a perfect son. Went “yum cha” at Lei Garden with parents as always for Saturday lunch. Engaging in interactive conversations. My Mum just happily gives away “lai xi”. Well, it’s still CNY. There's this waitress' name that resembles her name.. occupied my mind for a moment..

Went shopping at Taka… Still do not understand ladies needs to shop so much. My dad and I was like standing at the side discussing on which rich tycoon just passed away, how they managed their business, how much do they get to spend each month, and Estee Lauder is being taken over because the boss over spent!! Hahha… Went to buy Japanese Cuisine’s ingredients, my mum starting her "2nd semester" soon! Went home, accompanied her watching videos. WAH!! Who wants Clint to be their son??? Hahaha.. Mummy not going to see Clint so often soon.. Going on course.. If only she’s still here.. It’s going to be perfect..

Course going to start in 8 days.. Yes, I’m counting. Current feeling? Just like the end is coming. Well, this is what we call getting out of our comfort zone. Which to me now is pretty normal and kind of gotten used to it, maybe because I do not have a choice over it? Just like when I was enlisted, when I report to OCS, going to Air wing, attaching to unit…

BUT, what is most important!! It’s another beginning. This means I’m going to meet new people (course mates & instructors), new things, new “tekan” sessions, new environment (air force school), new schedules (no more stay outs), new… because of all these new encounters, it keeps me guessing and imagining. It’s normal right? This phase is going to be my life for the next 7 months! Yes, quite excited about course starting though it definitely at some point gona suck.

Behold!!

Ironic, Ironic, Ironic…

2005-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

Wah!! Today is totally amazing!! I actually bumped into so many people that I know from all over the shop.

Went to several place for work…. SAFTI, MINDEF, CMPB, PLAB.. and bumped into at least 9 personnels. The most amazing is that I bumped into this ex secondary schoolmate- Meiyuan. Earlier in the morning I just got into communication with her through another ex schoolmate which is a colleague in office with me. Just the very night, I bumped into her!! Don’t you all think it s just so amazing… Took the same bus and had some catching up. She’s going to UQ soon…

This bumping into people thingy has made it so unbelievable to my colleagues that they suggested me to break bond and set up business since networking so good. They want to work for me!! Probably in the future…

More fate!! My parents went some boutique in Taka and met my 2nd Anut’s Sis… Haha.. While visiting my Uncle, met my mum years ago colleague… can’t believe it…

Anyway, that evening met Calista for some catching up too. It’s been like 1 year we last met. Watched Elektra and had some cakes at BakerzInn, (where I met Arvin). Poor girl.. She’s like so stressed up, can feel it the first sight of her. To all out there: you guys better find ways to de- stress, happiness is very important to healthy growth like to Clinton!! Haha..

Take care all~

P.S: Commander actually praised me for the paper I did!! Was over the moon, I volunteered for another paper, work!! Yeah!!

Released!!

2005-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Havn’t been blogging for quite some time… Here goes!!

The ultimate SAI KANG (Commissioning Parade 55/04) has finally added for me!! For the passed 3 weeks has been training as the junior ensign BUT didn’t put it to use though, thanks to my height. Well, as said in previous entries, the period is value cultivation for myself, and it is.

The passed weeks, I’ve been feeling how useless and unwanted I am. It’s not a god feeling, trust me. Down, unmotivated, totally do not understand the reasons to stay there despite the pure sitting down, role playing someone else but still get shouted at for NOTHING… Every time this happens, I can just take a deep breath, grit my hurting teeth and continue. “Da4 Zhang4 Fu1, Neng2 Qu1 Neng2 Shen1”, with this phrase running through my mind as frequent as I take a breath.

Second lesson, Professionalism, one of the RSAF core value. Though the reason for me there is the most minute thing I’ve encountered, even with toothache and fever I didn’t go report sick and probably escape a couple of days. BUT I must say it is hard, real hard to keep myself committed to it. Later I go, people say I Chao Keng…Any way, that’s not the main reason, it’s just doesn’t feel right for me to see a doc, who cares about what others think anyway… “Preparation, focus, do your best..” hahah.. Quoting from the Wing SM. You can given me 3 years of enriching but super tough and tiring training, but not 3 weeks of being nobody, unwanted… That's Clinton

Normal working hours resume soon after. Shan’t dwell into work. AFTER WORK: Still needed a few days to recover from the grueling weeks, Mich was super steady, met me for some entertaining movie with just when I felt down. Went to Sim Lim some day after work, go myself the long awaited Creative Zen Micro and a 40 gb hard disk. Though I can bring neither to work!! Haha…

Went to my 1st practical class 3 lesson!! Yeah! Finally.. The instructor was nice, though he looked fierce, but army trained personnel should have the composure. He didn’t belive I’ve not driven before!! He kept saying I drove illegally. My god.. Maybe my motoring skills are good, so I recommend LEGO for babies, kids, they are good for training motor skills. Hope to get my license soon, can’t really take the traveling time…

Dinner with Buddies

2005-01-16T17:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah… It was a wonderful night last night!! I invited all my buddies, my core friends to my place for our favourite!! – Steamboat dinner PLUS ultra long crapping session.. Shall name them out… They are (Drum roll... Drum roll…) In order of appearance:

1837 hrs: Zhengling and Alex (the inseparable couple) – Reached earliest despite giving warning they might be late. Impressive. More or less in their own world, can always leave them alone and be entertained.

1855 hrs: Ryan – As expectable, this officer is going o be late… But already quite “heng” that he is not bugged by his friends having birthdays at every weekend… Our frequency is tuned to… the SAME and we can already like know what the other party is thinking or next action. Steady, must be the trip. Hahah.. Gay…

1902 hrs: Puimun – Comes with this quite messy hair… Haha… She’s the thesaurus!!! Whenever we have some mental block, she will confirm come out with some words in her vocab to fill the blanks.

1902 hrs: Lay Hong – Came together with Puimun, and also brought along a bottle of Chenin Blanc with them. Quite surprise to see her arriving without Jian… Thought they were the cents and dollars… Who cares… hahaha

1930 hrs: Mich – This girl… Cannot make it. Live ultra near me but is the LAST one to arrive without a good reason. Say wanted to help me with the preparation… In the end stayed home to pack her own room. What can I say…

20** hrs: Shijian – Can’t remember what time he reached… around there la.. guardsman need to go back to work after the dinner… Hmmm.. Good example for the officer corps. His men lucky to have this nice man as their PC. “GO FIND THE HIGHEST POINT AND KNOCK IT DOWN………..!!!” That’s his favourite phrase now.

2030 hrs: Eric and Jian – Officer cadets… Both missed some training due to their weakened health fever and diarrhea respectively… So booked out late because of Remedial training (RT). Really really happy to see them. It’s been some time we met. Thanks for coming guys…

Dinner was great, as usual, always… Laughter filled my living room, even my mum was entertained. Yeah… The relationships here is getting very special… layhong and Mich shoul roughly get it… But is always for the good. Hehehe…

Ya… Liverpool lost.. SHIT… Why did the DUD to it again… Is Man Utd we are losing too lor… I’m sure the next will be better… (I hope..) My mood sucked for awhile… Till another round of conversations took over… Mich and Lay Hong are anti-abortion then they keep opposing me because I thought it is a case to case basis thingy… They just think we guys have this pro-abortion thinking... Hmm… it’s a long discussion. Narrated my Taiwan trip to them with the photos while the Lye Bros, as usual sleeping already… Blah blah blah…

As said a wonderful night to erase the shit for the whole week. Another week is starting… Don’t how it is going to be…I know something is for sure, it is within my control. :D

I hate the Seniors!!!

2005-01-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

Life now has already become so sucky with all the waste-my-time rehearsals.. NVm.. I take it.. Now, comes the people around me are becoming a problem.. These seniors of mine, going to be commissioned in another 12 days, is beginning to put up the arrogant accent and attitude in them. I will gladly help them in everyway I can even if it is not within my jobscope, but if they come up with all the ugly attitude, MY ARSE..

As observed, humans tend to really "float" when his or her status rises upwards and they tend to forget the basics. Basics of how to treat people, self discilpine, punctuality, respect, etc etc... A learning point for all of us, reflect and evaluate ourselves often and make sure we do not sink into the "ugly quicksand".

Another point observed is how a simple decision could make an impact on others. For example, in the rehearsals, when it is time for our ceremonial dress inspection, the "!@#$%^&*" can actually forgo our inspection as he had done it previously. He just wanted us to change into the uniform, never mind.. We changed. Then, he merely took a few glances on us, approximately, half a second on each one of us then asked us to change back. He has no idea we went into a room that smells like rotting flesh from the tsunami, for the uniform, with the School Sergeant Major (SSM)breathing close behind us and not to say the crowd. Not that I want to bitch about this small little occasion of just changing in and out, it's just an example of how a "hack la" decision or "just cover my ass" decision can lead to so much, in this case just some hassle, maybe next time more could be at stake... What we ask for is just some justifications to the actions...

Well... Of cause as I said in previous blog, this period is good for value cultivation. I'll just take it in stride and this blog actually serves as a good way to let out some steam... Shiok... :)

Don't Know what to name...

2005-01-10T08:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm… As requested... Didn’t update blog because there isn’t much to update. Life now has been dull and boring…. No challenge at all. Because of some reasons, I can’t touch many of the things at work YET.. So got to just wait, while doing researches, researches, researches... Projects, projects, projects… For somebody who is pure LAZY and dreaming of promoting… Came a bit late, so bulk has gone to Wancai… Poor him, surely can feel for him.

To make it worst this coming 2 weeks I’ll be attached to Air Force School to be the junior ensign (the ULTIMATE sai kang). Drills apart, still need to act as some pilots and demonstrate how to collect awards. WASTE of TIME!!! Well, just take it as value cultivation ba… (like real…)

Come weekend, feeling moody, restless… If not for Riex asked me out for dinner, I wouldn’t have even stepped out of house. Had toothache… didn’t like eat comfortably, didn’t talk much…. Just listening to the 2 girls chattering and chattering away… Accompanied them, did some shopping with them… DEN to my favorite!! Acid bar to watch SOCCER!! Singapore won 3 to 1..!! Hurray!!! Second leg should just be a routine… Ole ole ole ole… Didn’t really bored with them though… More to come… I guess…

Some thoughts~

2005-01-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

2004 for is coming to an end, of course goods things may have happened but I thought, it is the only the ugly ones which had really made an impression on me. Since i didn't have the mood to go out, might as well share some thoughts.

As always, I was learn from the things I watch on TV. I just finished this Hong Kong serial that really made me picked up a lot of thoughts. This show evolves around this group of doctors that are really sincerely and helpful. Hence, they are always involved in this corps (Lifeforce) that dispatches out to all over the world for medical support. Through this window, I get to see the amazing passion and sincerity people can display in helping one another. It made me realize the fragility of human in every corner of the world which greatly needs support from the more fortunate ones. Maybe bringing it closer, our family and friends which is ultra important to us. How many out there have been taking them for granted??? Well, I’m sure most have. I don’t know how I can put into words and illustrate it to you guys; surely we can all feel with the things happening around us.

Then came these killer waves. Not that I realize only now, but seeing so many people die made me feel more that life is ultra fragile. Tuning to the news, often having new updates on how the devastated the affected areas are. Comparing the “before and after” videos and pictures sure makes one’s heart shrink…

We may not be the people helping out there now but, at the very least we must appreciate what we have now, ourselves, families and friends. Many of times, it is just too late when something unfortunate happens… I Mum offered to go with me for the volunteer job this sunday!! Haha.. *touched*.

Alright… on the lighter note, wish 2005 will be a more fortunate year ahead, may these blessings reach every corners of the world.

Taiwan Expedition

2004-12-31T01:48:00.000+08:00

Hey Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls!! Clinton just got back from Taiwan!! With whom?!?!? Girlfriend?? NO.. That’s what all my commanders ask when I tell them I’m on leave. It’s with my beloved bro, RYAN LYE CHAI YONG.

Well, the trip was kind a chance for me to get away once in a while. Experience more stuff, see more things. More significantly is the person who is living with you. Glad to say also, Ryan and I got lots to talk and discuss about. Sometimes of course to some heated ones, but still able to get ourselves back la… Lol... We got ourselves around by every means available, train, MRT, cabs, ship, by foot. By foot the most. Clocking some distances everyday. Recce commanders sure has their working hazards. Ryan was like taking out the map and nearly every 5 mins!!! HAhahhah… I thought they all use the navigation data sheets?? My god…!!

Being competitive (both of us), we keep having some challenges here and there. Of course, the nature of our job, challenging situation awareness and assessment. There was once Ryan was urgently looking for the restroom. Walking here and there, then and the corner of my eye I spotted this man with the ultra relieved face and most importantly, wet hands walking up from a stairway. Well, I won this time!! I found the toilet twice for Ryan during the whole trip!!

Girls, Food, shopping paradise..!! Recommend all ladies out there, where you like, love, need shopping!! Taipei is the place. If you going to visit these shops one by one, day by day, it will like take you… 50 years?? :) Food!! Needless to say… Every hawker tempts you like crazy, you’ll never be able your figure… Girls there… Hmm.. No offence to Singaporeans, ratio of good looking ones are high! But I think more importantly, their dress sense is amazing. They really know how to dress up, or is because of the culture there…

Taiwan is a recommended to all, especially for couples, there are also countless of places for you to go “pak taw”!! Oh ya… if you are interested in looking at the photos, can look out at Ryan’s blog, me too lazy… Still considering outing pictures in my blog…

12 hours in Orchard...

2004-12-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

GOSH!!! Spent near to 12 hours in orchard area shopping… Yep, you’re right, went to do X’mas shopping. Is the first X’mas which I draw salary from the big boss. So… The biggest present went to my MUMMY!! She’s been ultra active lately, going to culinary classes, taking care of my daily chores… She’s outstanding so got her a Burberry’s bag to add to her glorious collection… Yup, went on and accompanied her to get presents for my cousins. Already quite drained till this point but I still need to buy more presents for some important people. Alright Mum and Dad went off. Mich came to take over. We are like walking for miles la... before getting some infant clothing for my baby niece and a gift for Aunt Charlotte.

Mich was incredible, always so enthusiastic, me already quite “seh”… Luckily go her to accompany me. Ya, met Casey and Zhirong. Casey told me this girl agreed to attend my commissioning ball. Which is like 9 months away!! And I DON’T know who she is, what her character like, how she look like… What’s her name?? Thanks Casey :)... Had a great dinner at this place in Tanglin Mall for Sabu sabu. It’s been advertised in Mich’s blog already so shan’t say much.

Just do not understand females out there who can shop for years and also why do they need so many clothes, bags, accessories for?? (Ops…) It’s even more draining then a field camp… Whew...

Yes? No? Maybe?

2004-12-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

HEY!! Look at the Christmas weekend! Seem like a perfect time for me to go out of town for a few days!! Yup, currently planning for a trip to Taiwan. Time a bit tight for planning, waiting for the confirmation leave grant for 2LTA Lye Chai Yong. Hope he gets it and we can happily wait for 24th Dec to come and then fly off. OOppss!! That means missing the party at Casey’s place… not so much on the party, but it could be a chance for me to see people like Danping, Yurong, Casey, San San, Zhihao, Qiming, Meihui, Gwen, etc etc… Hey... did I miss out somebody called Gi*m Swe* Li* SERENE??? Its been ages I seen them I have a good talk with them… Hmm… We going to have some other gatheringSSsss soon?? :)

Anyway, really hope to go this time round. It’s been so many time when I plan to go on a holiday and didn’t make it for some reasons… I MUST make it this time!!!

P.S: And DAMN!! Hey Lye listen up, I may be efficient and hungry to go this time, but DO NOT take me for granted understand…

Relac Clint~

2004-12-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

Yup, just went through a intriguing first 2 days of my attachment. It’s kind of far, not only from my house but the building is like miles away even from the main gate. Luckily the first day a driver is arranged for me o drive me in and out. BUT is only for the first day…!! Basically did 0.11111112 of work, altogether just helped to type something which only took me 5 minutes of the 2 days. I’m drawing salary… Feel ultra uneasy… Must find things to do.

Only 2 days, I discovered that there are many things to learn, many materials to read, need to read lots of news. And luckily these things interest me which is important to me. It makes me more motivated to find out more myself.

Met very nice guys, from clerks up to the Colonels. All are always willing to help and willing to teach and coach me. Just by sitting in one side listening to their conversations helped me gained much knowledge.

Very important point here!! I’ll be free for dinner with anyone, if anyone who doesn’t have any dinner khaki can look for me ya… 1900-987616**..........